A wanna-be-father after six years?? Really??

The dead-beat had a Skype conference with DD today. Contact with DD has died down in a major way over the last few months, hell over the last year. Even though he no longer has a cell phone, he has access to a computer 24/7, but even that doesn't seem to motivate him enough to...

A woman knows

To all the women who decided to stay even tho I didn't...... What I wrote July 2008 https://shotthrutheheart.wordpress.com/2008/07/30/why-we-stay/  

One year ago today…

I left wounded and hurt....totally messed up as a human being. Today, I am healed and trying to get my life back on track. It has been a long road over the last year. I found it very difficult to pick myself up off the floor while still bleeding, get my things together and walk...

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This is the tattoo I had put on in January of 2009, a month after arriving back to the states. It is right over my heart, or what's left of it anyway.  When people ask to see it and question me about it, I just say, “I was shot thru the heart and I never...

Death of me

I should have seen those signs all around me, But I was comfortable inside these wounds; So go ahead and take another piece of me now While we all bow down to you; You tear me down and then you pick me up, You take it all and still it’s not enough, You try to...

Do what you do

Lips bleed from the rings, All these little bruises, the little things, That provoke the segregation. Lead the separation. Cage and clip the wings. Little noises, the little screams, That stop the operation. Conscious amputation. Just do what you do, What you do, what you did to me. Now I'm stuck in between a rock...

I made it to the states

Thanks to all who have been concerned regarding my absence on this blog. So much has been going on and I've been quite busy trying to sort everything out. Me and my daughter have managed to make it to the states where we've been over the last two months. At this time I don't know...

World so cold

When passion's lost and all the trust is gone, Way too far, for way too long Children crying, cast out and neglected, Only in a world so cold, only in a world This cold Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes Then watch them drift away Some might say, we've done...

Another breach of agreement

This morning while sitting behind my laptop, I started wondering why H has been sleeping more than usual this past week. Before I found out about his affair, he was sleeping quite a bit. Looking back now, I know it was his way of trying to avoid me as much as possible. There have been...

Too much time on my hands

H mentioned to me that he likes the road we’re on. He likes this road, because it is a road of peace in the home. We only talk about everyday things, which mostly relates to our daughter. There are no longer any heavy conversations or disagreements. It is very quiet here on the home front....