Me and my daughter spend a lot of time talking. The deep conversations we have together are not only memorable but are also very intelligent on her part. She gets me thinking of things I would have never thought of during any topic of conversation.
The other night, we were talking about a variety of things like we do from time to time, when out of no where she says, “I only have five more years of school left! What am I going to do!?!”
I was not only shocked it came out of her mouth at that particular moment but I began to see how stressed she soon became. While blaming herself, she went on to say, “What have I been doing over the last two years? !!”
The first thought that came to mind was why would she be thinking of this at the young age of 13. When I was 13, I never thought about how many more years I had left of school or what I was going to do after I graduated.
I knew I had to say something but couldn’t find the right words. So I began saying, “You have plenty of time. We will figure this out together. School is important but your health is more important. If you continue to worry it will only cause unneeded stress. You will see, in time, everything will fall right into place.” With that said, she just looked at me with a little relief on her face and quickly began to calm down.
What would you have told your daughter?
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Where did her summer go? Her and I have both been wondering the same thing. It just sneaked up on us and we didn’t even see it coming.
Suddenly, it was time to register for school and go shopping for new clothes.
Suddenly, it was time to say goodbye to the long days of just relaxing and having time on her own.
Suddenly, it was time to say goodbye to those long nights of staying up late and talking for hours on end without having to worry about getting up early the next day.
Now, it is time to plan for a another school year and all it will bring.
I feel really bad that she didn’t have the summer she had planned. Her summer was filled with excitement, frustration, anxiety, anger and depression. It wasn’t long before acceptance set in that she would not be spending her summer in Greece. At least now she has learned that things don’t always go as planned and sometimes there are obstacles that get in the way. It was definitely a summer of learning.
I really didn’t have a choice to give her up. She was like part of the family and has been with me through so much. Her name was Harley. The day I left her there, after the tow truck dropped her off, I never saw her again. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.
Is it possible, to actually love a car that much? I still feel sadden to know that she is gone forever. It was unexpected and there was nothing I could do. She was tired and her motor had given out.
On Monday after work, I headed to the car dealership knowing she was parked in back. I thought it would be kind of silly to ask to see her. So I just looked around for another car and felt bad that I knew she was there and I didn’t even go see her. I went ahead and bought a new car and traded her in. I have to say it will take me a long time to get used my new car as I continue thinking about what will become of her.
My first day on Monday was great! So much in fact that I received more hugs then I did before I left six months ago. Most of those I had encountered were very happy that I returned and they certainly showed it. It felt good to be back home again.
On day two, I had so much work thrown my way, I had no idea where to begin. This is a new position with much more responsibility than my last position. But just like before, people acted as though I had been there for years. They just kept giving me assignments with deadlines and I done them to the best of my knowledge. After all, that is how I got ahead so quickly last time.
This is what one of Engineers gave me on my second day. He sure wasn’t kidding either. The assignments kept coming and began piling up. So I decided to take it slow and do one thing at time that way I don’t get overwhelmed.
I am happy to report I ended up in a great division and couldn’t have hoped for anything more. I already know everyone which makes it much more relaxing. Now that the end of week has arrived, I look back to see all I have learned. It is quite refreshing to be involved once again with great people!
Many years ago, in what seems to be a lifetime, I would gaze out into the distance of lights shinning brightly and think of a life that could be.
Now when I gaze into the distance, I remember a life of what once was.
I wrote the above years ago way before my daughter was even born. I remember the day like it was yesterday. I remember sitting outside, late at night and even now, I can feel the cool breeze on my face. It was a time when I had came home for a visit from Greece and had been in deep thought of how far I had come to that particular moment in time.
I believe the universe is conspiring against me. It always seems to be the case when something great happens in my life. This occurs every six months or so and has went on for as long as I can remember.
It all makes perfect sense to me and I no longer take it personally. It’s like the good has to out weigh the bad. How else would we be balanced in life?
On Friday, which was my last day at work, I decided to only work half day. I had to go and pick up my credentials for my new job. So I went to pick up my daughter and we headed into the city. On the way there, my car was not running right and I could tell something was terribly wrong. I had to pull off the freeway to check out the car and then it died. It wouldn’t start, so I had to call AAA.
While waiting for the tow truck, I started thinking to myself here we go again. I couldn’t help but laugh to myself knowing this was yet another test. Another test that I know I will come through with flying colors.
What are the odds that I start my new job on Monday and I don’t even have a vehicle?
What are the odds that my motor is completely shot and it never even gave me a warning?
What are the odds that I will have to buy a new car, while starting a new job all at the same time?
Perhaps the Universe has its reasons and maybe this was suppose to happen at this particular moment in time. A time when my life begins a new course of change. A change for the better.
After my last post a month ago, I have been in deep thought and research about returning to my former agency. You can read that post here that’s called “I never go back.”
I had no idea there was a word for it. It is basically a term used to described employees who leave a job and then return at a later time; whether it is months or years down the road. This is becoming quite popular and employers are rehiring employees back who once worked for them. They do so due to the fact they will not have to take the time to train or wait for the employee to settled in. They tend to rehire knowing that the employee who left has gained more experience that can be a benefit to them upon their return.
I have read there are benefits in returning to your old place of employment but I have also read that you are to return just as though you were a new employee. I know there are new people who have been hired since I left that I will have to establish working relationships with and I will also have to reacquaint myself with those I left behind. I will walk in there just as I did the first time full of confidence and my extraordinary personally that seems to melt the hearts of those who come in contact with me.
I now look forward to this new position that brings forth new challenges and adds more diverse experience to my career.